its been a few days now. the signs of the miscarry are still present. i called the doctors office yesterday and she said the 'brown' was a good sign that its all passed. I'm scheduled for an ultrasound next week so they can check my uterus and make sure everything is out. she also said to wait a cycle, ideally 2, before we try again. thats a long time- to me. i think i will wait one.

a loss is still a loss.  i think wes isn't understanding this and why im so depressed. i tried to bring it up but he rolls his eyes. i just have to convince myself this is my own trial i need to work through alone.